This Is It!

* MY 2ND HOME; MY QUEENDOM*


After 3 months of training, eto na kami... Officially part of the Shell Australia Orders Team!!!!

My station is set, I've arranged my picture frames, posted additional photos, brought office supplies that I do not really need, and even decorated my station with stuff toys from home.

I am thrilled... training almost bored me to death and I am now ready for more exciting and productive undertakings..

Aussies, here I come!!!


*ON MY FIRST DAY DOING ACTUAL WORK

Sana Nasa Tabi Mo Ako....

Malungkot ako ngayon... Kasi wala ako sa bahay para maalagaan ang mahal ko... Alam ko kailangan niya ako ngayon... Alam ko dapat nasa bahay ako ngayon... Pero andito ako ngayon sa trabaho, walang magawa para sa mahal kong may sakit...
Ang hirap kapag may gusto kang gawin at kumukontra ito sa kailangan mong gawin. Ang hirap kapag napipilitan kang gawin ang isang bagay, kapag meron kang mas gustong gawin. Pero sa tingin ko , pinakamahirap kapag may hinihingi sa yo ang mahal mo at hindi mo maibigay... Ang hirap kapag kailangan ka niya pero wala ka...

Hindi ako nakakapagpost

Ilan araw na ang lumilipas at hindi na ako nakakapagpost.. Medyo busy kasi... INaayos ko kasi ngayon ang aming station. Nagdodownload din ako ng mga kanta na inilalagay ko sa pc ko para naman hindi ako mabore sa aking magiging trabaho. Hehe. Kaya hindi ako masyado nakakasulat. Idagdag pa doon na binabasa ko ngayon ang Along Came A Spider ni James Patterson. Maganda siya at talagang medyo may pagka-suspense. Hindi tuloy ako nakakapagsulat tuwing break dahil nagbabasa nalang ako dahil hindi ko na mahintay kung ano ang magiging katapusan ng libro. Haha. Basta, pasensya na kung hinid ako nakakapagsulat... promise, babawi rin ako....

Kabwisit Ka

Nabwibwisit ako sa babae na ito. Galit ako sa kanya. Kilala niyo ba sya? Kung medyo nagtatago ka sa lungga at hindi nakakanood ng tv, basa ng radyo o d man lang nakikipagusap sa mga tao sa paligid, siya si Hope Centeno, di umanong babae ni James Yap. Hindi ko siya hiuhusgahan sa pagiging babae ni James di umano. Sakali mang totoo nga ang kanyang mga pinagsasasabi, kahit d man maganda, kaya kong unawain ang kanyang pagmamahal kay James. Kasalanan mang ituring ang umibig at makipagrelasyon sa isang may asawa, naiintindihan kong pwedeng mangyari yun kahit kanino. Kaya patawarin na natin siya doon. Totoo man o hindi.

Ang kaso, hindi lang naman yun ang kababuyang ginawa niya. May lakas ng loob pa siya na lumabas sa tv at mga dyaryo, ang magpainterview at isiwalat ang kung anu anong detalye sa siumanong relasyon nila ni James. Anong klaseng babe naman ang kailangan pang ibroadcast sa buong mundo ang mga bagay na dapat nga ay ikinahihiya na niya. Tama na ang nagkasala siya sa pagpatol kay James, pero ang manira pa talaga sa harap ng maraming tao ay sobra na. Sinasabi niyang kaya siya lumabas ay para ipagtanggol ang sarili niya sa paghuhusga. Sana alam lang niya na hindi siya kilala bago siya lumabaas. Walang huhusgahan dahil walang pangalan, walang mukha at walang taong naiuugnay sa nasabing problema ng magasawa. Natapos na san doon. Ngunit kailangan pa niya talagang kuhanin ang atensyon ng lahat at subuking magpasikat. Ayan, oo, sikat na siya. Pero hindi niya nakuha ang kagustuhan niyang malinis ang pangalan niya Dahil sa kanyang ginawa, mas nabwisit sa kanya ang tao, mas hinusgahan na siya. Tsk Tsk.

Nagagalit ako dahil asawa rin ako. Kung may tatangkang manira ng pagsasama namin gaya ng ginagawa nitong babaeng ito, talagang gera ito. Nagagalit ako dahil tao akong may puso. Kung magkasala man ako, hindi ko naman ipangangalandakan pa at ipamumukha sa mga taong sinaktan ko at mga taong walang pakialam. Magsisisi ako at mahihiya. Nagagalit ako dahil kawawa naman si Kris. Pagbigyan na natin siyang lumigaya. Everyone deserves to be happy. At nobody's expense.

Mall of Asia

Nung Sabado, nagpunta kami sa Mall of Asia. Kasama ko si Jay at ang aking mga anak at pati narin si Mommy, Daddy at si Bunini. Maganda pala dun. Syempre alam na nating malaki yun diba? Nagustuhan ko ang pagpunta dahil maganda ang setup ng lugar. Sa labas ay marami ring mga shops at food stalls, tapos kita mo pa ang manila bay. Sa loob naman, maraming stores na pwedeng pamilihan at maraming amusement na pambata. Napakaraming kakainan, feeling ko tataba talaga ako kapag lagi akong mamamasyal dito.

Pagdating ng hapon, marami ng tao ang kumakain sa mga restos sa harap ng Manila Bay. Syempre ang dahilan, the world famous Manila Bay Sunset. Sayang lang hindi ko masyado nakuhanan ng maganda ang sunset, medyo malayo rin kasi sa bay eh. Pero maganda at masarap parin siya panoorin. Syempre lalo na kung kasama mo ang mahal mo sa buhay.

Hindi pa nagtatapos sa magandang sunset ang offer ng MOA. Pagdating ng alas-7, nagkaroon naman ng fireworks display! Ang saya, dahil sa harap talaga kami nakaupo at ramdam na ramdam mo ang putojk at kitang-kita mo ang ganda ng pagsabog ng mga kulay sa ulap. Kahit malayo ng konti, maganda talaga pumunta sa Mall of Asia.

Letters & Blogs

I am reading Sam's Letters to Jennifer by James Patterson right now, and I am just inspired to write many letters as well. There are so many thoughts that I want to express, feelings that I want to share, stories I want to tell. I have always been into letter writing. Since grade school, I would have a friend that I would be writing letters to everyday, even if we see each other daily as well. I guess there is something about writing that makes me feel good. The freedom that I get to express myself without interruption, the hope that your words will be read and understood by the recipient, the feeling that you are sharing yourself to someone. It makes me understand myself better, connect with someone, and to celebrate all the things, wonderful and bad, that is happening in my life. Living life is good. Actually feeling and reveling in it is much better.
So I should blog more often.
I think blogs are letters without specific recepients.
Blogs are my letters to the world.

I'm Not Practising Enough

I havent really taken much pictures these days.. Bad... I really try to take as much pictures as I can, but sometimes there's just nothing for me to capture. Lame excuse. I'm reprimanding myself now. Try harder Dyanne. Work harder. If you want to be good, if you want to learn, you've got to practice... Shame on me. Haha.

Happy Valentine!

WE've been though a lot. A whole lot. Despite of it all, my love for you remains strong. For it grows each and every day, as I find more reasons to love you.
Through the years, you have shown me how it is to be loved deeply. I thank you for that, I thank you for giving meaning to my life.
I love you... Endlessly.

Valentine's Day na Bukas!!!

It's Valentine's Day tomorrow... Hala! Hehe.. Ano kaya ang meron o mangyayari? Mula pa nung grade school ako, napaka-halaga kasi para sa akin ng araw na ito. Dati, nagbibigay ako ng mga cards sa aking mga friends. At kung may pera ako, miski regalo. Nakuha ko ata yun sa pagbabasa ng libro e, sa States kasi diba, namimigay sila ng "Valentines". Yung mga card nga ba, na ngsasabi sa pinagbigyan mo na mahalaga sila para sayo. Nung 2nd year high school nga ako eh, bingyan ko si Jay ng pillow. Medyo feeling close kasi ako sa kanya nun eh. Hehe. Feeling ko friends kami. Nagpupunta kasi siya sa bahay and naglalaro kami ng crosswords, paunahan ng hula sa kanta at sinong kumanta ( siyempre siya lagi ang panalo), at itinutulay ko kasi siya sa isang friend ko. Nakakatuwa kasi hanggang ngayon ay nasa kanya pa yung pillow. Ngayon, si Andre at si James na ang gumagamit.
Kaya ayun. Mahalaga nga sa akin ang Valentine. Ewan ba, siguro dahil sadyang romantic ako. yung tipong gusto ko sanang pumunta sa Lovapalooza, kaso ayaw ni Jay eh. Hehe. Wala naman akong ineexpect kung tutuusin. Iniisip ko sana na punta kami Baguio or Tagaytay, kaso hindi na tuloy yun, kaya ewan na. Oh well, kahit wala ako ineexpect, sana makapagplan rin kami talaga ng something. Kahit hindi bukas siguro. Basta ang mahalaga, maicelebrate namin, not ang Valentine's Day per se, but ang aming love. Hehe.

New Passions

I am so happy! I am developing a lot of new passions right now, and it has become a source additional color and excitement in my life.Haha. Before, it has only been Jay and the kids, but its not really healthy right?
So this year, I started with photography. Right now, I am still learning, at times I get frustrated, but in general, taking pictures gives me much pleasure. And then, there is this blog. I started out early last year, but after a few posts, lost interest. It is a good thing that this year, I was able to revive it. And look! I could say that I have posted a lot and have paid much attention to writing and expressing myself. I love it when I blog. Sometimes I wish I actually write better, but, who cares?! And now, my most recent addition, BRAIN TEASERS! My Math teacher in high school was actualy the one who introduced my liking to brain teasers. Everyday, she would post a teaser on the board that we all have to answer by the next day. I love it when I get to solve them, or even if I dont get to, I love thinking of the answer. Ever since, I really try hard in answering teasers that are thrown at me, and I love throwing them back to my husband as well.Now, so that I would have a compilation of my favorite brain teasers, and so that I would be able to share it to people, I created another blog that contains brain teasers. Maybe someday I would create an actual site, but for now, I'm blogging it first.If you are interested and wants to try solving some of the brain teasers, you can visit www.geniusatwork.multiply.com

I'm Your Angel

For you... You know why...

No mountains too high for you to climb
All you have to do, is have some climbing faith
No river is too wide for you to make it across
All you have to do, is believe it when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come,
and everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears, cast them on me
I just want you to see

(chorus)
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your Angel,
And when all hope is gone I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your Angel, I'm your Angel

I saw your tear drops and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and your still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

Then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears just cast them on me
How can I make you see?

chorus

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep us safe and warm
and I know we will survive

And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky

chorus

YIPEEEEE!!!!

I am so happy!!!!! Finally, my husband's home!!!! I so miss him (miss kasi I actually havent seen him, am in the office kasi)! I came to work feeling very frustrated and lonely, thinking that at the end of the day, he will still not be here. I even left my celfone, because I dont wanna receive a text from him saying he is still in Ilocos. I'd rather be hopeful, that he could already be on the way home. But I really didnt think he woul be home this early! Whopeee! I cant wait to go home!!!!
(If I have a camera, I would post a picture of me smiling from ear to ear. Ü)

Umuwi Ka Na

Malungkot ako ngayon. Paano naman kasi, miss na miss na kita. Pwede ba namang hindi, e halos apat na gabi ka ng wala. Isang gabi nga lang ay hinahanap na kita, yun pa kayang ganito katagal. Nalulungkot ako kasi wala akong makwentuhan kapag gabi, wala akong masabihan ng mga nangyari sa araw ko. Walang yumayakap sa akin at wala akong katabi sa pagtulog.

Gusto ko sanang sabihin sa yo pero hindi naman pwede. Hindi pwede kasi baka makasira pa ako sa bakasyon mo. Baka kahit hindi mo pa gustong umuwi, mapilitan ka dahil nahihiya ka sa akin. Ayoko naman nun, gusto ko, uuwi ka dahil namimiss mo na rin ako, dahil gusto mo na ako makasama. Pero sa totoo lang, minsan natutukso ako. Minsan gusto ko na lang paguiltihin ka, kasi baka kung hindi, tagalan mo pa ang pag-uwi. Minsan, gusto ko ng maging makasarili at pauwiin ka. Magagawa ko e gusto na kita makasama. Haaaay...

Kaya pwede, wag mo mna akong kukumustahin? Wag mong tatanungin kung namimiss na kita. Kung gusto mo, magkwento ka tungkol sa mga ginagawa mo. Ikwento mo sa aking ang saya mo, ang mga narararansan mo. Kaya kong pilitin na hindi sabihin sa yo ang nararamdaman ko, pero kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko kayang pilitin ang sarili kong maging ok lang sa pagkalayo mo.

Pero hindi kita pauuwiin... Para sa yo, titiisin ko ang nararamdaman kong pagkalungkot. Kung masaya ka eh...

Pero sana... para sa akin... umuwi ka na...

HATS

Here is a brain teaser that was given to us in training. Please let me know how well you did in guesing the correct answer! (Please provide an explanation and time it took). Have fun!

Rules:

1. A, B, C & D are standing on a straight line.

2. A is facing right and could only see the wall.

3. B is facing left and could only see the wall.

4. C is facing left and could only see B and the wall.

5. D is facing left and could only see C, B and the wall.

6. They are all wearing hats.

7. They know there are only 4 hats, 2 black and 2 white.

8. They are to be executed.

9. If one of them would be able to shout out the color of hat he is wearing, they would be freed.

10. If they shout the wrong color, they would all be killed mercilessly.

11. They could not move their heads, nor could they talk with each other.

How do they all get away?

I Know I'll Never Love This Way Again

You look inside my fantasies
And make each one come true
Something no one else had ever found a way to do
I've kept the memories one by one
Since you took me in
I know I'll never love this way again
I know I'll never love this way again
So I keep holding on before the good is gone
I know I'll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on
A fool will lose tomorrow
Reaching out for yesterday
I won't turn my head in sorrow
If you should go away
I'll stand here and remember
Just how good it's been
And I know I'll never love this way again
I know I'll never love this way again
So I keep holding on before the good is gone
I know I'll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on

-- Almost everyday there would be a song that I would really love, a song that would really tug at my heart. I would be listening to it and singing it as well. Today it is this song.---

Crybaby

Napaka crybaby ko talaga. I could definitely say na I am one of those people that cry at almost everything and anything. Sa mga movies, novels, tv series, commercials, and even songs. Madali kasi talaga maantig ang damdamin ko. Very passionate kasi talaga ako about life, and I easily relate to the feelings of people.

Bakit ko ba nasabi yun? Kasi kanina, napaiyak ako sa training. As in iyak talaga. Si Simon (trainer namin) kasi eh. Meron kaming icebreaker wherein you would write a "What if" question and then the person next to you would answer it. Yung isang tanong, "What if you have 1 wish to be granted, what would that be?" Sumagot siya. Ang sabi niya (Of course, tinagalog ko na), meron daw siyang brother na sobrang close siya. Nakakausap niya about everything. Naglalaro daw siya ng cricket, and 1 game away nlang daw siya for internationals. But one day, nainjure siya. And everything came crashing down. Ibang iba na raw siya. Sabi nga niya, he is only a shadow of the guy he used to be. Parang nadepress nga ata ng sobra yung brother niya, and it really affected him. Hindi na raw niya nakakausap ng maayos yung brother niya. Kasi nga, broken na talaga yung brother niya. I was not able to catch exactly what his wish was, kasi umiiyak na ako that time. But it is something like his wish would be for his brother to be okay again. Or for him to be able to talk to his brother again. (Pasensya na, hindi accurate.) Basta, yung effect niya sa akin, ayun...

natouch kasi ako sobra kasi hindi naman serious person si Simon eh. Makulit, mapang-asar at childlike ang dating niya. Kaya nung out of the blue ay mag-open up siya, naiyak ako. Hehe. At siguro rin, talagang I was feeling very low kanina eh. Kahit ano siguro magpapauyak sa akin kanina eh. Grabe noh? That has really happened to me alot. People would make kwento, and I would really cry. But I like it. I like the feeling of crying. I dont like being sad, but I like crying.

What do you do?

What do you do when you are feeling very down? The kind of down that you feel that your spirit is already on the floor, being kicked and stepped on. When you want to shout for someone to pick you up, but you are too tired to even speak up. The kind wherein you cant stop crying, or even if your eyes do, your heart does not. When one thought of what makes you down will bring back all the tears you wish to hide from those around you. The kind that breaks your heart ever so slowly. Little by little piercing you until you could not take it anymore. The kind of down that makes you just want to give up; to just surrender to the pain and let it take you wherever it wants to... To the darkest and deepest abyss, to the most isolated chasm, to emptiness...
Tell me, what do you do?

Pagpunta ni Jay sa Ilocos

Kagabi, umuwi si Jay papunta Ilocos. Dumating kasi ang tita niya from the States at dun nila sa Ilocos iremember ang death anniversary ng lola niya. 4 na araw siya mawawala, kayang talagang malungkot ako. Hindi pa naman kasi kami nagkakahiwalay ng ganung katagal eh. Ayaw ko kasi talaga. As much as possible, gusto ko at the end of the day, kasama ko siya. Gusto ko, when I wake up in the middle of the night, katabi ko siya. But for four nights, mawawala siya. Sigurado, I will miss him terribly. Actually, ngayon palang, I already do. Pag naiisip ko kasi na pagkatapos ng work, paguwi ko sa bahay, wala naman siya. Buti na nga lang hindi niya isinaman yung mga anak namin eh. Buti nlang, may sasalubong parin sa akin paguwi. Pero siyempre, iba parin kapag andun siya.Buti na rin lang, he surprised me with a teddy bear. Dati ko pa kasi gustong magkaron ng teddy bear. And now he gave me one. Para nga naman may yakap ako habang wala siya. Haaaay.Naku, ewan ba, good luck nalang sa akin ngayong linggong ito. Mahal, unuwi ka na dito....

Lesley's Despedida

Nung Sunday, we had a despedida for Les. Alis na kasi siya papunta siyang Singapore. Dun na siya magpapayaman. Haha. Kaming apat na magbabarkada nung highschool at si Borj ang lumabas. Dapat kasama namin si Jay, but for some reason, hindi siya nakasama. So kami nalang napunta. Sa Seaside palutuan kami nagpunta.

Masarap dun! Mamalengke ka, tapos ipapaluto mo. Mura lang lumalabas ang food. Sabi nila, pinakamasarap daw sa GSquared kaya yung family ko dun lagi kumakain kaya dun rin kami kumain. Nagpaluto kame ng buttered crab, sinigang na hipon at sizzling pusit. Sarap! Hhhmmmm!

We wanted more, but dahil 5 lang nman kame, un nlang. Masaya sa Seaside kasi yung environment niya, masarap talaga makipagkwentuhan. It is a great place to meet up with friends, have reunions, or simply to have a feast.

Masaya ako na malungot nung gabing yun. Masaya dahil masaya naman talaga kasama yung mmga friends ko eh. Masarap pa sila kasama kumain kasi ang tatakaw. Hehe. Malungot siyempre because of what we are celebrating. After our sumptious dinner, nagpunta kami sa Metrowalk to have dessert.

Dapat sana Ice Monster, but wala na pala. SO Icebergs nlang. Medyo disappointed ako kasi sobrang asim na nung mango con hielo nila. Hindi ko nga naubos eh. Sayang. Natuwa kami sa Metrowalk kasi may naglalaro nung parang rodeo thingie. You have to stay on a automated bull for 80 seconds on 1 hand. Medyo magalaw yung bull kaya mahirap. Nakakatuwa siyang panoorin kasi mukhang tanga yung ibang sumasakay, at masarap namang icheer yung ibang magaling. Meron nga ding basketball challenge, wherein you have to shoot 8 balls in 25 seconds, free throw distance. Sayang, dahil kung kasama namin si Jay, e di sana nanalo na kame ng stuff toy. I think sobrang dali lang nun for him e.

We went home around 11pm, may pasok pa kasi ako kinabukasan e. Sayang, sana madami pa ang ganoong mga outings. Sigurado ma-mi-miss ko si Les, at dahil wala si Les, malamang hindi na kami ganung magkita ng barkada... So, mamimiss ko rin sila...

Pagpunta sa Avilon Zoo

Nung Sabado, nagpunta kami sa Avilon Zoo. Matagal ko na actually gusto pumunta dun, hindi lang nagkakaopportunity. Nung Sat, dapat talaga ay magbeach kame as a despedida for Lesley but dahil hindi natuloy, nagpunta nlang kame Avilon. Hehe, I know medyo magkaibang activity talaga yun altogether but ang gusto kasi namin magawa ay magpicture picture eh. It took us about an hour from our house, si Les ang nagdrive. Isinama namin si Jay at Andre, iniisip ko kasi na magugustuhan ni Andre ang mga animals. ANd I think I could say he did. May mga animals na takot siya, meron namang natutuwa siya. May mga part na nagpapakalong siya, pero may mga times naman na naglalakd siya ng kusa at tumatakbo. Nasiyahan naman ata kasi siya eh.

Kame rin ni Les tuwang tuwa. Ang sarap kasi magpicture at maganda ang mga animals.

Si Jay, hindi ko alam kung nag-enjoy. But he did say maganda yung place. Maganda naman kasi talaga eh. 7.5 hectares daw siya, pinakamalaking zoo in the Philippines. Malinis yung lugar, at masarap talaga pasyalan. May mga animals nga na pakalat-kalat lang e. .

Basta ako, nagenjoy ako. Happy ako na nagpunta kame dun. I'm sure matutuwa din ang kahit sinong pupunta . Para sa mas maraming pictures, visit www.mommydyanne.multiply.com/photos/album/17

Frustration

hay naku nasa mood na naman ako na frustrated ako. nakakainis na itong photography na to ha. dko alam kung bakit hindi ako satisfied sa mga pictures ko... dahil ba hindi maganda ang camera ko, o bka baguhan pa lang talaga ako, o dahil hindi talaga ako nagkakaron ng opportunities kumuha sa magandang lugar, o baka naman talagang wala akong talent sa photography. haaay...
my passion should be giving me joy and a sense of accomplishment, pero bakit ganito ang nafeefeel ko? siguro kasi i want everything at once... dyanne, wag ka mainip... in time dyanne, in time... hay naku sana nga. kapag kasi nakakakita ako ng magagandang pics, namamangaha ako, tapos nalulungkot ako kasi hindi ako makakuha ng ganung shots. haaay. i really want to practice, be able to go to beautiful places... gusto ko talaga gumaling... yung bang matutuwa talaga ang titingin ng pictures ko.. yung bibilib sila sa akin.. but ithink more importantly, yung bibilib ako sa sarili ko...haaaaay... kailan kaya?

In response to your March 23, 2006 post

*dy & les 1999 * dy & les 2006

nung una kong nabasa yung post mo 10 months ago, naiyak ako... at nung nabasa ko ulit siya ngayon, naiiyak na naman ako...
tama ka naman kasi eh... matagal na nga tayong magkaibigan.marami na tayong napagsamahan...tinanong mo sa akin kung naalala ko yung mga nangyari nun... oo, naaalala ko lahat ng yun at marami pang iba. naalala ko yung pagsama mo samin sa pagsanjan isang christmas break... diba nga, may hand signals pa tayo nung panahong yun? naaalala mo pa ba yun? ako ay may ilan pang alam, tulad ng sa cute, pangit, naiiyak ako, uwi na tayo... naaalala ko rin yung pagpunta natin sa puerto galera. napakasaya ko nun, isa yun sa mga pinakamasayang adventures ko.

les & dy at big la laguna puerto galera




e yung nagpunta tayo sa Tagaytay? Kuna paanong naligaw pa tayo at inabot ng anim na oras bago makarating. naaalala ko rin kung paano tayo magtelebabad nun... hehe, grabe noh, inaabot tayo madaling araw... at ang mga sulat!!!! hindi talaga pwedeng pumasok ng walang dalang sulat. siguro ganun talaga tayo ka-connected nun. napagsasaluhan natin ang bawat damdamin at isipin ng isa't isa..




on one of our sleepovers photo op at school

kaya nalungkot talaga ako nung nagkahiwalay tayo ng landas nung college. sobrang nanghinayang ako na hindi na tayo magaksama, dahil alam kong maapektohan ang pagkakaibigan natin. tama yun sa isang banda. dahil hindi na nga tayo madalas magkausap, natigil ang sulatan, hindi na tayo masyado nagkikita. akala ko nawala na ang ating pagkakaibigan. pero sa isa pang banda, kahit may mga dumating na bagong kaibigan, may mga nakasama sa bagong buhay, kahit hindi na tayo nagkakasama, walang nakapantay sa pinagsamahan nating dalawa. hindi dahil hindi tayo nagkita o nagkausap ibgi sabihin hindi ko hinanap ang ating samahan.


kaya sobrang saya ko nung 2006 ng biglang nabuhay ulit ang ating pagkakaibigan. bumalik ang emails, paminsan-minsang tawag, pagkikita, pagoovernights. masayang- masaya ako na nagbalik na ang aking kaibigan. meron na ulit akong nakakausap kapag nababagot ako sa opisina, o kapag hindi ako sigurado sa takbo ng trabaho o buhay ko, o kapag gusto ko lang magkwento. meron na akong nayayayang magsine kapag hindi gusto ni jay yung palabas na gusto ko. ang dame ko pa naman plano para sa atin . gusto ko makapunta tayo sa iba't ibang lugar. yung magaganda para makapagpicture tayo. gusto ko makilala ang bago mong magiging boyfriend, at makilala rin siya ni jay para sabay tayong lalabas. gusto ko sana maging magkatrabaho tayo, para araw-araw kitang nakakausap.



dy & les at james's bday dy & les at pili's wedding


ngunit ngayon...



aalis ka na naman. alam ko meron namang email at ym, pero iba parin yung nakakasama mo talaga ng kaibigan mo diba? ni hindi man lang kita makasama magpicture-picture.ang laki pa naman ng impluwensysa mo sa pagkahilig ko sa photography. nalulungkot talaga ako sobra. ibinalik ka sa akin, pero babawiin uli... ung selfish na ako, nagwiwish na sana bumalik ka at dito nalang matrabaho.. pero yung friend mo in me, wishes the best for you, at maaring yun ay ang makahanap ka na ng trabaho sa Singapore at magpayaman sa ibang bansa.


ang aking dasal na lang, ay sana, kahit malayo tayo, ay wag na nating mapabayaan ang ating pagkakaibigan. sana kahit hindi tayo magkasama physically, sa ating puso't isipan, meron pa rin tayong isang magandang pagkakaibigan. pwede naman yun diba?

sana. sana.

PHOTOGRAPHY

Just before the year started, I promised myself to start a new hobby: photography. Actually, I want it to be more than just a hobby. I want to develop a passion, and I want to be good in it. I've been trying to practice, trying to learn everything I could to be decent in my chosen (although of course, it was not a forced choice) passion. I try to read all the sites I could go to that offer tips on photography, and I try to go to places where I could take good pictures. But somehow, I am feeling a little frustrated. I know that taking pictures actually makes me happy at times, and yet sad as well.

I feel happy because little by little I am learning, and I am able to develop something, and someday I hope I would become a good photographer. Right now I know I am not yet one, but I have high hopes for myself. Haha. Which may be the very reason I get saddened as well.

I am so into photography now, but to whom shall I share my passion with? I love taking pictures, but at the end of the day, to whom do I show my pictures to? Who appreciates them? Of course, I have Jay... But I've taken a lot of pictures and yet I can't remember a picture he really liked. Either I have really no potential in photography, or he just really is not into photos. If I believe the first one, it will frustrate me; if I believe the second one, it will sadden me. Aaargh. I know I also have friends who are into photography as well but: Les, who was actually the one to influence my liking for photography... Too bad she has other friends to whom she already shares photography with; Bang, who really likes to pose and smile for the camera ( and looks real good too)... Well, like Les, I am not able to see her as much as I would want to. So, it saddens me. Good thing I have my seatmate Paula.. She is starting to get interested in photography as well, and during breaks we get to show each other our pictures. But still...

Also, I love taking pictures... I'd love to take pictures in beautiful places. I would really enjoy visiting different places, near or far... Alas, I dont get too have that much opportunity. If only I could spend my weekends going to places, taking pictures, being with my family... I don't want to spend my weekends stuck in my room sleeping. I want to live, and explore, and capture the beauty all around me.

So there. My love for photography, my desire to excel, and my high hopes... Making me happy, yet making me sad as well.. Frustrating.

(Well, I actually believe that it could be psychological. I believe that with just a little conditioning and change of attitude, if I focus on what is good, I could truly be happy.)

Ibigay Niyo Na Ang Backpay Ko!

Bwisit na bwisit nako ha! As in gusto ko na magwala! It has been 4 long months... 4 1/2 even... Hindi naman milyones ang backpay ko eh.. It is just around 6 thousand.. 6K na dapat ay wala lang sa kanila at sobrang halaga for me... Gaano ba katagal ang pagcompute nun? Damn napaka pathetic talaga at loser ng kumpanyang yun! No wonder all the people I worked with there are gone already. Lahat nagresign narin. Kitang-kita kasi ang kawalang-kwentahan ng company... AAAAAARRRRRGH!!!!!

Napakamadaya talaga ng kumpanyang ito.. Sige, hindi ko na sasabihin kung ano ito, para free akong maglabas ng bwisit about it. Like:
1. Nakaka-3 palit na sila ng name, dahil tinatake advantage nila ang pagiging tax-free ng mga bagong call centers dito sa Pinas. ( Well, siguro, palit din sila ng palit ng name kasi sobrang pangit ng repu nila at gusto nilang matakasan ang bad image nila)
2. Nagpapa-training sila ng 2 weeks without pay. Worse is that hindi naman pag-aaral lang ang training na ito. The company uses the trainees to actually work. Pinagtratrabaho nila ang mga trainees for free. Mas worse pa, only 30% actually pass the training. So magaaksaya lang ng pagod, oras, pamsahe at baon ang mga trainees. Gagamitin lang sila ng kumpanya, tapos... Bye bye na.

Need I say more pa ba? Haaaaay! kaya nga hindi ko natiis at nagresign ako from there within 3 months. Hindi kaya ng integrity ko. Hindi ko kayang magwork for a company I dont believe in. Lalo pa na ang trabaho ko ay manghikayat ng mga trainees. Ano ako hilo?!!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRRGH!!!!!!

Acting Single

Last Friday, Jay and Andre went home to Laguna and I had an opportunity to be single for one night. Not that I wanted to. I guess right now, I would always prefer to be at home with my family than to go out with my friends. Not that I don't want to be with my friends. In fact, I really do want to be with them, its just that I want to be with my family more. Anyway, since I have no family to go home to last Friday night ( except for James who is sleeping already), I met with some of my friends from college.

My phone's battery actually died at around 5pm, so I had to meet with them and wait without any form of communication. It was definitely difficult, because I was already getting bored and sleepy. We were supposed to meet at 7pm but it was already 745 and they were still not there.
Finally, Kite, Myk and our orgmate Fides finally arrived. On their hands were their Christmas gifts for me and my babies. Thoughful! Well, Kite and Myk are Ninangs of my sons so they should have gifts for them. Haha.

We went to Megamall and they shopped at Plains&Prints, while I just looked at the items. I don't have the luxury that they have of shopping expensive (even if on sale) items. We went to Cafe Donatello afterwards to eat. Myk and Kite actually offered to treat me, and I was actually tempted to agree since I only have P200 left in my wallet. Haha. I declined though. Somehow my pride got in the way, making me feel that I don't really want to always be the poor one. Haha. As if it's not true.

We made chikas, exchanged updates and generally made kwento about our lives, and the lives of our friends. It was nice talking to them. I always enjoy our times together. Of course, I would want to see them more often. That is why I like inviting them to our place, so that I would get to see them, and still be with my family. Selfish; wanting everything. Hehe.

Anyway, the night ended with the promise of seeing one another again soon. Maybe in mid-Feb, when Kite gives birth. Can't wait!

CSI NY Season 3

Ha! I just said na sobrang namimiss ko na ang CSI, and that I want to watch season 3 na... and to my delight, nakabili na kao ng season 3 DVD! Yipeee! Havent watched it yet, will do later... Can't wait! ( Bought Miami Season 5 as well...)

I hate sleeping alone

Ayaw kong natutulog nang mag-isa... Ayaw ko ring nagigising nang mag-isa... Hindi na ako sanay... At malamang, it is something I will never get used to. Nor do I want to.
Unless I am really tired, I find it hard to sleep if Jay is not around. That does not happen much, but when it does, sobra nabwibwisit ako. Gusto ko sabay kame natutulog, and gusto ko, kapag naaalimpungatan ako sa madaling-araw, he is beside me. Kapag hindi, naba-bad trip ako. That is why I am sure, bad trip ako mamayang gabi at bukas ng umaga. He is in Pagsanjan kasi, and I am totally not looking forward to tonight. Friday pa naman... We normally talk till the wee hours in the morning kasi wala naman pasok kinabukasan. And I love our talks... Sayang. Hmmmp, nababadtrip na tuloy ako ngayon pa lang. Panira ng weekend. Hah. Well, what can I do, gusto, or baka naman kailangan, kasi niyang umuwi without me eh. Haaay. Sana hindi na lang. Sigurado ma-mimiss ko siya. hehehe. Yuck ang corny!... So what, e totoo naman eh... Ü

Bad Trip. He better make up to me when he gets back. And I hope that would be VERY EARLY tomorrow. If not.....

CSI NY

I soooooo miss CSI NY! Nasaan na ba ang season 3 ng aking beloved tv series? :( I was first able to watch it 2005, when we were stil living in San Pedro. I was hooked the first time I saw it. Syempre inifluence ko ang husband ko, and soon, he was hooked as well. Dati I watch all 3 CSIs, but now hindi ko na pinapanood and CSI (Las Vegas). Supposedly, since siya ang original, siya ang pinakamaganda. Still, I don't like its style. Gusto ko ang New York because it is just light and very witty. Also, I love all the characters. With Miami naman, ok sana siya, kaso nakakainis si Horacio eh. I dont like the way he speaks or acts. While there is no NY though, I watch Miami na lang. It is something that my husband and I really look forward to every week. Kaso.... nagtapos na rin ang season 4 ng Miami... and wala paring season 3 ng NY... So what na ang papanoorin namin?!!!!

I-air niyo na ang CSI NY Season 3!!!!!!! PLease!!!!!!

World Pyro Olympics

Went to Pyro Olympics last Friday. Wow, it was nice, maganda panoorin at masarap maexperience. What was nicer was that, hindi lang kame nagpunta dun to watch the show, but we also had a small picnic. Yun nga lang, yung mga kasama namin were all late. Kaya ako lang, andre, bunini and mom & dad lang ang magkasama. The fireworks were beautiful in general, but I would think na mas maganda siguro ang shows ng ibang countries. Still, it was something to see.

Some of the fireworks; Eating at Aristocrat @ 12midnight

The most difficult thing about the event I think, was the terrible traffic after. We were only able to eat at 12midnight. Sayang nga kasi wala na talaga gana kumain dahil sobrang sleepy na.

Anyway, I would still want to watch it next year.

Training

5 weeks of training over... By now, I should be very familiar na with Shell as a company, its businesses, etc. I should also be knowledgable na with Australian culture and language. My, is it interesting! Sobra dame nila mga idiomatics expressions and ang vocab nila, kakaiba! A few examples:
1. servo - gasoline station

2. arvo - afternoon

3. ball and chain - wife

4. bloke - man

5. Pommy - English (citizen)

6. barbie - barbeque

7. brekkie - breakfast

8. Seppo - Americans

9. rugrats / ankle biters - kids

10. bingle - vehicle accident

11. bizzo - business

12. bludger - lazy person

13. chook - chicken

14. coldie - beer

15. spit the dummy - get very upset

16. off his face - drunk

17. who opened their lunch? - who farted?

18. rack off - get out of here

19. tall poppy syndrome - tendency to criticize successful people

20. sparky - electrician

Astig noh? I think they are really very interesting people...
Ngayon, we're off to harder training.. We are moving na to product specs... 7 weeks to go... Yep yep, 7 more weeks.. Siguro by the end of that time, expert na kame sa lubricants and fuels. Haha. Let's see.

My 50 Favorite Things

These are my favorite things... They are not neccessarily in order...
1. Sidney Sheldon
2. Danielle Steel
3. Perry Mason
4. Nancy Drew ( when i was a kid)
5. Karaoke!! ( Sana magaling ako kumanta!)
6. Lay's Sour Cream & Onion (1 pack on 1 seating)
7. Milky Way ( Ultimate Comfort Food!)
8. Mango (Ripe, Green, Shake and Dried)
9. Game Ka Na Ba (Feeling Henyo)
10. Shopping ( Pero mga mura lang)
11. Budgeting ( Mahilig akong magcompute2 ng finances namin)
12. Organizing events (from simple labas2 ng family, outings, to birthdays and weddings)
13. the BEACH!!!
14. Mongolian Bowl (This is the only vegetable dish that I really eat.)
15. Seaside Palutuan (G-Squared)
16. Japanese Food (Katsudon, Tempura & Sukiyaki)
17. KFC (thigh part!)
18. Biology (During High School and College)
19. Tootsie Roll Candy
20. Keebler's Chocolate Lover's Choco Chip Cookie
21. Cheesecake
22. CSI NY ( Nasaan na ang Season 3?!!)
23. Picture-picture!!! (and my camera of course)
24. Kris Aquino (Haha... Don't know why..)
25. Choco Chip Blizzard with extra strawberry (Yum Yum, another comfort food!)
26. Crispy Pata
27. Ginataang Kalabaw ( our specialty, all my friends who visit Pagsanjan love it!)
28. Kwentuhan with my Husband
29. Nature
30. Tenga ng Baboy ( I miss my UP days.. Isaw sa may Ilang2)
31. Dad's
32. Little Asia
33. Eating out
34. Pink
35. Yellow / orange
36. Cotton Candy ( Lalo na yung sa kalsada!)
37. Trips (Basta mga gimiks to nice places)
38. Stuff Toys ( Esp Fluffy Teddy Bears)
39. Scrabble / Crossword (and other similar mind & word games)
40. PLaying with my Kids
41. Cooking ( Kahit very limited lang alam ko)
42. Turon ( Yung luto ko at ng mommy ko)
43. Beefsteak
44. Surfing ( Net lang ha)
45. Les, Bang & Pili
46. Kite, Myk, Don & the rest of FF!
47. PSYCHSOC Days
48. High Shool Days
49. Educational Books (Uy seryoso yun ha... Love to learn..)
50. Dancing

NO MORE PRETENSES!

Yes, no more pretenses. I've tried hard, but I'm finding it difficult. I am ready to quit. Tama na ang pagpupumilit kong Englishin ang aking blog. Haha. Magtatagalog na ako. Yipee!!!! Freedom at last! Of courses, hindi ko naman sinasabing hindi na ako mag-english... it's just that (kita mo...) nahihirapan na kasi ako, hindi natural ang blogging ko kapag english. Para kasing more than for myself, e for an audience ang nagagawa kong blog kapag english. I dont want that to be the case. Gusto ko, my blogs are primarily for me, to be able to express myself. Mas para maintindihan ko ang sarili ko, at hindi para maipakita sa tao. Naks. Kaya eto na... more personal and from the heart entries I hope...

NEW YEAR PLANS

I dont have any new year's resolution. Not that there is nothing to change or improve, but maybe I am just stubborn and won't let go of my idiosyncracies. What I like to have though, are plans... Things that I want to acomplish this year... Here's the short list:

1. Start photography as a hobby.- Bought a camera, and I really want to learn and at least be decent in taking pictures. Don't wanna take posed pictures only, I wanna try to develop the art of taking pictures of any thing. Ha ha, good luck.

Sample photo on my 1st practice... At La Mesa Ecopark
2. Have a honeymoon- Never really had the chance to go to a real honeymoon, so I really wann be able to do it this year. I actually have wanted it since last year, but it is financially difficult to do so. Hopefully I would be able to save up now. Maybe go to Boracay, Cebu or Palawan.

3. Have our own home - I was able to enjoy this for 6 months last 2005. I would be able to say that truly, this has been one of the happiest phase in my life. Too bad that when Baby James arrived, we could no longer afford to stay in San Pedro so we went back to my Mom's place. I am praying that this year, we would be financially capable to live on our own again.
I think that's all. The important and concrete ones though.

Going... and almost not going... to La Mesa Ecopark

Went to La Mesa Ecopark yesterday.. The reason why I wanted to go was that I wanted to take pictures, and of course, I wanted my kids to be able to play... The park actually fell short of my expectations. I would not say though that it was because the park was not a nice place to go to, but maybe because I was really expecting something very beautiful. In general, it is a place wherein you would be able to relax and enjoy nature... A place to unwind, it could even be a good place to have dates.. You could have a picnic or just enjoy the nature trail that it offers. A little more maintenance is needed though. There does not seem to be enough flowers, and the few that are there are actually wilting already.

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Almost was not able to go actually... last Saturday, my sister and I were planning to go to Tagaytay, but we decided not to pursue it as there were rain clouds overhead. Sunday morning, the urge to go to a beautiful place still wont leave me. I checked the net, and suggested that we go to La Mesa Ecopark. My, was I excited! I really wanted to practice taking pictures and I know that this would be a wonderful opportunity to do so...
Sadly, my husband did not want to go. He said that he just wants to stay at home. His personality never was the type who wants to go out. We had a little bit of a fight: him saying why do I have to "force" unto him the kind of life that I want to lead, and me feeling that "Why can't you just sacrifice a little for something that you know would make me happy?"...

I understood him though... I know he just wanted to rest, so I did not "force" him anymore. I told him that ok, if he does not want to go, it is okay with me. BUT i am still going. I guess maybe he understood me as well because he eventually dressed up and joined us.

We did not discuss the issue again. Personally I think that it is not healthy. I would have wanted us to talk more, to make our feelings more known. But sometimes, you get tired of discussing. What's th epoint of bringing everything up again if things already worked out? Temporarily.

Maybe we could discuss it the next time I am gonna make plans for us to go out. Ha ha.

After 6 long months...

Hi! I'm back... Afer 6 long months, I am here again... Right now, I am just confused.. What do I post here, and what do I post in Multiply... Haha... I was thinking that maybe, I will post updates about me in Multiply, and post more personal thoughts here... Of course, I dont really want everyone to read naman what I have to say, but I think it is okay for them to learn more about me.. Whatever.. Good luck to me... Haha.. Anyway, if you want to visit my multiply, it's www.mommydyanne.multiply.com

Sabangan (San Juan, Batangas) Beach Outing

We had an outing last Sunday, we went to Sabangan Beach resort at Laiya Beach in San Juan Batangas. We had fun, but it was bitin because we only stayed for one night. Here are the things I like and did not like about the beach:

I like:

1. The water

-The water was clear and was not cold. It was just cool enough to provide refreshment but it wont make you shiver.

2. The sand

- As you can see, the sand is light brown, some would say Laiya is white sand, but if you would really be strict about it, it is just beige.

- The sand is not really fine, it has a mixture of small pebbles and shells, but it is still nice though.

3. Snorkling and Boating

- We had fun renting a boat (800 for an hour) and going to an area where there is a lot of corals and fishes. We fed the fishes with bread.

- During the boatride, it was a bit scary because the water is of a deep blue color indicating the depth.

4. Swimming

- I just love the water!!! I put on a lot of sunblock so I can enjoy the beach even at the peak of the sun, but even if I become real dark, I think it is worth it!

5. Spending time with my family

-Of course, outings are really fun because you get to spend quality time with people you love in a very nice place. I loved playing with my kids on the beach and just strolling with my husband. Of course, I was also with my parents and siblings making it more fun!

6. The cottage

- The cottage we rented was P6,oo0 and it is good for 10 people. The comfort room was nice, the water was not smelly (unlike in Puerto Galera), the room was airconditioned and the bed sheets were not cheap. we also had the luxury of being in front of the beach. We also had a parasol where we can lounge and enjoy the beach without the harmful rays of the sun.

7. The massage

- We paid 300 for an hour of massage, it was nice because we did it by the beach..

8. The games

- We rented the game tables and I beat jay in foozeball (is this how you call the soccer table?) 2-1 so I really enjoyed it. There is almost nothing I beat Jay in so that was a rare event, making my victory very sweet. Haha.

Birthday

I've recently celebrated my 24th birthday and I want to take the time to think about the things that I wish for in my life, and of course, the things that I am thankful for...

I wish for...
1. 300 Million pesos
-haha, what a wonderful life I would be having with that much money in the bank... :)

2. A good job for me and Jay
-I wish I would be able to have a job at an MNC, maybe doing recruitment and employee relation work, with a salary of 18k plus benefits.
-For Jay, if not a new job at a MNC as well (with about 30k minumum), higher rank and pay at his company (minimum 25k)

3. Independence
-Although I love my family and enjoy being with them, I would also love to live only with my husband and kids.. It was very fun back when I was able to do it for 6 months..

4. Love from my babies
-Slowly Andre is warming up to me, especiall if Jay is not around, but there is still room for more affection from him..

5. Quality time with my family
-Sometimes I wish that I could just spend the whole day with my family, sometimes I even ask Jay to be absent and not get paid just as long as I could be with him..

I am thankful for:

1. The love of my husband
- Nothing more wonderful than being deeply loved by the love of your life! :)

2. My babies
- I was not prepared to be a mother back then but now, it is such a good feeling to be around my babies, even having to take care of them..

3. My parents
- My mom is very kind and generous that she is still helping me now, since I am still living with her, she is still the one who feeds us, and a lot of times she helps me with the expenses with my babies.

4. My education
- When I think about the things I have, it is one of the things that I know I could be proud of. Thanks to my parents, I was able to attend an excellent elementary and high school (Miriam College). And thanks to the good education I was able to get from Miriam, I wa able to pass UP... Now I know that somehow, my dreams of a good job is more achievable...

Maybe I have to review this again after some time... There might be new things to add...

Basketball

I love basketball...

I recall way back in my high school years, I was an avid fan of the PBA. I was rooting for Shell, and it was during this time that they were able to reach the finals with Alaska. I guess I have watched around 15 live games and almost did not miss any game on tv. My favorite among the players was Victor Pablo. Don't ask me why. I don't know. Upon review, I know that he was not exceptionally good, there was almost nothing about him to idolize, yet, I liked him. Maybe that was enough.

During the same time, my dad first managed the intertown team of our province Pagsanjan. The games were during weekends, and I would always be there with my dad and my brothers cheering for the team. This is where I first met my husband. During this time though, I was nothing more than a friend to him. I was 16 and he was 21. I remember being totally smitten by him.. anyway, thats a different story...

Until now, my dad still manages the team, my husband still plays and my sister's boyfriend is also from the team so it is given that my family is one of the biggest supporters. Last year the Pagsanjan team was the champion, the year before that they were 3rd , before that 2nd, and before that champion as well. It is why we were all really hoping that the team would be champions again this year. The competition is tougher because there were several new teams that were really good, but Pagsanjan was supposedly more mature now and is ready to face the big boys from the other teams.

Sometimes they played well, sometimes they did nott, but they were able to reach the point that it is just a best of three series to determine if the team will be able to make it to the finals. They were competing against Sta.Cruz, a worthy team which already won a championship as well. Pagsanjan won the first game. sadly, they lost the 2nd and 3rd.

The feeling was really bad, it is very disappointing and frustrating to lose the chance to defend the championship. I could see that they were all disheartened, actually, we were all disheartened.. It is sad, but I guess we have to accept that losing is really a part of the game. It also made me think that being the champion is sometimes not simply being the best... Its simply about winning when it counts. I mean, we've all watched movies like Mighty Ducks, Little Giants, The Longest Yard and the like, all movies that shows how an underdog can become the champion. So maybe, sometimes, even though you are the best, you could be beaten by a lesser team. Of course it also goes the other way.. Even though you are not a very good team, but with the help of coaching, game breaks and luck, you could also win. To help me ease my frustration, that is the perception I apply.

(Admittedly though, my thoughts may be just because we lost. Had we won, I think I would say we were the best.. ) Hahaha.