Kabwisit Ka

Nabwibwisit ako sa babae na ito. Galit ako sa kanya. Kilala niyo ba sya? Kung medyo nagtatago ka sa lungga at hindi nakakanood ng tv, basa ng radyo o d man lang nakikipagusap sa mga tao sa paligid, siya si Hope Centeno, di umanong babae ni James Yap. Hindi ko siya hiuhusgahan sa pagiging babae ni James di umano. Sakali mang totoo nga ang kanyang mga pinagsasasabi, kahit d man maganda, kaya kong unawain ang kanyang pagmamahal kay James. Kasalanan mang ituring ang umibig at makipagrelasyon sa isang may asawa, naiintindihan kong pwedeng mangyari yun kahit kanino. Kaya patawarin na natin siya doon. Totoo man o hindi.

Ang kaso, hindi lang naman yun ang kababuyang ginawa niya. May lakas ng loob pa siya na lumabas sa tv at mga dyaryo, ang magpainterview at isiwalat ang kung anu anong detalye sa siumanong relasyon nila ni James. Anong klaseng babe naman ang kailangan pang ibroadcast sa buong mundo ang mga bagay na dapat nga ay ikinahihiya na niya. Tama na ang nagkasala siya sa pagpatol kay James, pero ang manira pa talaga sa harap ng maraming tao ay sobra na. Sinasabi niyang kaya siya lumabas ay para ipagtanggol ang sarili niya sa paghuhusga. Sana alam lang niya na hindi siya kilala bago siya lumabaas. Walang huhusgahan dahil walang pangalan, walang mukha at walang taong naiuugnay sa nasabing problema ng magasawa. Natapos na san doon. Ngunit kailangan pa niya talagang kuhanin ang atensyon ng lahat at subuking magpasikat. Ayan, oo, sikat na siya. Pero hindi niya nakuha ang kagustuhan niyang malinis ang pangalan niya Dahil sa kanyang ginawa, mas nabwisit sa kanya ang tao, mas hinusgahan na siya. Tsk Tsk.

Nagagalit ako dahil asawa rin ako. Kung may tatangkang manira ng pagsasama namin gaya ng ginagawa nitong babaeng ito, talagang gera ito. Nagagalit ako dahil tao akong may puso. Kung magkasala man ako, hindi ko naman ipangangalandakan pa at ipamumukha sa mga taong sinaktan ko at mga taong walang pakialam. Magsisisi ako at mahihiya. Nagagalit ako dahil kawawa naman si Kris. Pagbigyan na natin siyang lumigaya. Everyone deserves to be happy. At nobody's expense.

Mall of Asia

Nung Sabado, nagpunta kami sa Mall of Asia. Kasama ko si Jay at ang aking mga anak at pati narin si Mommy, Daddy at si Bunini. Maganda pala dun. Syempre alam na nating malaki yun diba? Nagustuhan ko ang pagpunta dahil maganda ang setup ng lugar. Sa labas ay marami ring mga shops at food stalls, tapos kita mo pa ang manila bay. Sa loob naman, maraming stores na pwedeng pamilihan at maraming amusement na pambata. Napakaraming kakainan, feeling ko tataba talaga ako kapag lagi akong mamamasyal dito.

Pagdating ng hapon, marami ng tao ang kumakain sa mga restos sa harap ng Manila Bay. Syempre ang dahilan, the world famous Manila Bay Sunset. Sayang lang hindi ko masyado nakuhanan ng maganda ang sunset, medyo malayo rin kasi sa bay eh. Pero maganda at masarap parin siya panoorin. Syempre lalo na kung kasama mo ang mahal mo sa buhay.

Hindi pa nagtatapos sa magandang sunset ang offer ng MOA. Pagdating ng alas-7, nagkaroon naman ng fireworks display! Ang saya, dahil sa harap talaga kami nakaupo at ramdam na ramdam mo ang putojk at kitang-kita mo ang ganda ng pagsabog ng mga kulay sa ulap. Kahit malayo ng konti, maganda talaga pumunta sa Mall of Asia.

Letters & Blogs

I am reading Sam's Letters to Jennifer by James Patterson right now, and I am just inspired to write many letters as well. There are so many thoughts that I want to express, feelings that I want to share, stories I want to tell. I have always been into letter writing. Since grade school, I would have a friend that I would be writing letters to everyday, even if we see each other daily as well. I guess there is something about writing that makes me feel good. The freedom that I get to express myself without interruption, the hope that your words will be read and understood by the recipient, the feeling that you are sharing yourself to someone. It makes me understand myself better, connect with someone, and to celebrate all the things, wonderful and bad, that is happening in my life. Living life is good. Actually feeling and reveling in it is much better.
So I should blog more often.
I think blogs are letters without specific recepients.
Blogs are my letters to the world.

I'm Not Practising Enough

I havent really taken much pictures these days.. Bad... I really try to take as much pictures as I can, but sometimes there's just nothing for me to capture. Lame excuse. I'm reprimanding myself now. Try harder Dyanne. Work harder. If you want to be good, if you want to learn, you've got to practice... Shame on me. Haha.

Happy Valentine!

WE've been though a lot. A whole lot. Despite of it all, my love for you remains strong. For it grows each and every day, as I find more reasons to love you.
Through the years, you have shown me how it is to be loved deeply. I thank you for that, I thank you for giving meaning to my life.
I love you... Endlessly.

Valentine's Day na Bukas!!!

It's Valentine's Day tomorrow... Hala! Hehe.. Ano kaya ang meron o mangyayari? Mula pa nung grade school ako, napaka-halaga kasi para sa akin ng araw na ito. Dati, nagbibigay ako ng mga cards sa aking mga friends. At kung may pera ako, miski regalo. Nakuha ko ata yun sa pagbabasa ng libro e, sa States kasi diba, namimigay sila ng "Valentines". Yung mga card nga ba, na ngsasabi sa pinagbigyan mo na mahalaga sila para sayo. Nung 2nd year high school nga ako eh, bingyan ko si Jay ng pillow. Medyo feeling close kasi ako sa kanya nun eh. Hehe. Feeling ko friends kami. Nagpupunta kasi siya sa bahay and naglalaro kami ng crosswords, paunahan ng hula sa kanta at sinong kumanta ( siyempre siya lagi ang panalo), at itinutulay ko kasi siya sa isang friend ko. Nakakatuwa kasi hanggang ngayon ay nasa kanya pa yung pillow. Ngayon, si Andre at si James na ang gumagamit.
Kaya ayun. Mahalaga nga sa akin ang Valentine. Ewan ba, siguro dahil sadyang romantic ako. yung tipong gusto ko sanang pumunta sa Lovapalooza, kaso ayaw ni Jay eh. Hehe. Wala naman akong ineexpect kung tutuusin. Iniisip ko sana na punta kami Baguio or Tagaytay, kaso hindi na tuloy yun, kaya ewan na. Oh well, kahit wala ako ineexpect, sana makapagplan rin kami talaga ng something. Kahit hindi bukas siguro. Basta ang mahalaga, maicelebrate namin, not ang Valentine's Day per se, but ang aming love. Hehe.

New Passions

I am so happy! I am developing a lot of new passions right now, and it has become a source additional color and excitement in my life.Haha. Before, it has only been Jay and the kids, but its not really healthy right?
So this year, I started with photography. Right now, I am still learning, at times I get frustrated, but in general, taking pictures gives me much pleasure. And then, there is this blog. I started out early last year, but after a few posts, lost interest. It is a good thing that this year, I was able to revive it. And look! I could say that I have posted a lot and have paid much attention to writing and expressing myself. I love it when I blog. Sometimes I wish I actually write better, but, who cares?! And now, my most recent addition, BRAIN TEASERS! My Math teacher in high school was actualy the one who introduced my liking to brain teasers. Everyday, she would post a teaser on the board that we all have to answer by the next day. I love it when I get to solve them, or even if I dont get to, I love thinking of the answer. Ever since, I really try hard in answering teasers that are thrown at me, and I love throwing them back to my husband as well.Now, so that I would have a compilation of my favorite brain teasers, and so that I would be able to share it to people, I created another blog that contains brain teasers. Maybe someday I would create an actual site, but for now, I'm blogging it first.If you are interested and wants to try solving some of the brain teasers, you can visit www.geniusatwork.multiply.com

I'm Your Angel

For you... You know why...

No mountains too high for you to climb
All you have to do, is have some climbing faith
No river is too wide for you to make it across
All you have to do, is believe it when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come,
and everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears, cast them on me
I just want you to see

(chorus)
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your Angel,
And when all hope is gone I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your Angel, I'm your Angel

I saw your tear drops and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and your still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

Then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears just cast them on me
How can I make you see?

chorus

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep us safe and warm
and I know we will survive

And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky

chorus

YIPEEEEE!!!!

I am so happy!!!!! Finally, my husband's home!!!! I so miss him (miss kasi I actually havent seen him, am in the office kasi)! I came to work feeling very frustrated and lonely, thinking that at the end of the day, he will still not be here. I even left my celfone, because I dont wanna receive a text from him saying he is still in Ilocos. I'd rather be hopeful, that he could already be on the way home. But I really didnt think he woul be home this early! Whopeee! I cant wait to go home!!!!
(If I have a camera, I would post a picture of me smiling from ear to ear. Ü)

Umuwi Ka Na

Malungkot ako ngayon. Paano naman kasi, miss na miss na kita. Pwede ba namang hindi, e halos apat na gabi ka ng wala. Isang gabi nga lang ay hinahanap na kita, yun pa kayang ganito katagal. Nalulungkot ako kasi wala akong makwentuhan kapag gabi, wala akong masabihan ng mga nangyari sa araw ko. Walang yumayakap sa akin at wala akong katabi sa pagtulog.

Gusto ko sanang sabihin sa yo pero hindi naman pwede. Hindi pwede kasi baka makasira pa ako sa bakasyon mo. Baka kahit hindi mo pa gustong umuwi, mapilitan ka dahil nahihiya ka sa akin. Ayoko naman nun, gusto ko, uuwi ka dahil namimiss mo na rin ako, dahil gusto mo na ako makasama. Pero sa totoo lang, minsan natutukso ako. Minsan gusto ko na lang paguiltihin ka, kasi baka kung hindi, tagalan mo pa ang pag-uwi. Minsan, gusto ko ng maging makasarili at pauwiin ka. Magagawa ko e gusto na kita makasama. Haaaay...

Kaya pwede, wag mo mna akong kukumustahin? Wag mong tatanungin kung namimiss na kita. Kung gusto mo, magkwento ka tungkol sa mga ginagawa mo. Ikwento mo sa aking ang saya mo, ang mga narararansan mo. Kaya kong pilitin na hindi sabihin sa yo ang nararamdaman ko, pero kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko kayang pilitin ang sarili kong maging ok lang sa pagkalayo mo.

Pero hindi kita pauuwiin... Para sa yo, titiisin ko ang nararamdaman kong pagkalungkot. Kung masaya ka eh...

Pero sana... para sa akin... umuwi ka na...

HATS

Here is a brain teaser that was given to us in training. Please let me know how well you did in guesing the correct answer! (Please provide an explanation and time it took). Have fun!

Rules:

1. A, B, C & D are standing on a straight line.

2. A is facing right and could only see the wall.

3. B is facing left and could only see the wall.

4. C is facing left and could only see B and the wall.

5. D is facing left and could only see C, B and the wall.

6. They are all wearing hats.

7. They know there are only 4 hats, 2 black and 2 white.

8. They are to be executed.

9. If one of them would be able to shout out the color of hat he is wearing, they would be freed.

10. If they shout the wrong color, they would all be killed mercilessly.

11. They could not move their heads, nor could they talk with each other.

How do they all get away?

I Know I'll Never Love This Way Again

You look inside my fantasies
And make each one come true
Something no one else had ever found a way to do
I've kept the memories one by one
Since you took me in
I know I'll never love this way again
I know I'll never love this way again
So I keep holding on before the good is gone
I know I'll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on
A fool will lose tomorrow
Reaching out for yesterday
I won't turn my head in sorrow
If you should go away
I'll stand here and remember
Just how good it's been
And I know I'll never love this way again
I know I'll never love this way again
So I keep holding on before the good is gone
I know I'll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on

-- Almost everyday there would be a song that I would really love, a song that would really tug at my heart. I would be listening to it and singing it as well. Today it is this song.---

Crybaby

Napaka crybaby ko talaga. I could definitely say na I am one of those people that cry at almost everything and anything. Sa mga movies, novels, tv series, commercials, and even songs. Madali kasi talaga maantig ang damdamin ko. Very passionate kasi talaga ako about life, and I easily relate to the feelings of people.

Bakit ko ba nasabi yun? Kasi kanina, napaiyak ako sa training. As in iyak talaga. Si Simon (trainer namin) kasi eh. Meron kaming icebreaker wherein you would write a "What if" question and then the person next to you would answer it. Yung isang tanong, "What if you have 1 wish to be granted, what would that be?" Sumagot siya. Ang sabi niya (Of course, tinagalog ko na), meron daw siyang brother na sobrang close siya. Nakakausap niya about everything. Naglalaro daw siya ng cricket, and 1 game away nlang daw siya for internationals. But one day, nainjure siya. And everything came crashing down. Ibang iba na raw siya. Sabi nga niya, he is only a shadow of the guy he used to be. Parang nadepress nga ata ng sobra yung brother niya, and it really affected him. Hindi na raw niya nakakausap ng maayos yung brother niya. Kasi nga, broken na talaga yung brother niya. I was not able to catch exactly what his wish was, kasi umiiyak na ako that time. But it is something like his wish would be for his brother to be okay again. Or for him to be able to talk to his brother again. (Pasensya na, hindi accurate.) Basta, yung effect niya sa akin, ayun...

natouch kasi ako sobra kasi hindi naman serious person si Simon eh. Makulit, mapang-asar at childlike ang dating niya. Kaya nung out of the blue ay mag-open up siya, naiyak ako. Hehe. At siguro rin, talagang I was feeling very low kanina eh. Kahit ano siguro magpapauyak sa akin kanina eh. Grabe noh? That has really happened to me alot. People would make kwento, and I would really cry. But I like it. I like the feeling of crying. I dont like being sad, but I like crying.

What do you do?

What do you do when you are feeling very down? The kind of down that you feel that your spirit is already on the floor, being kicked and stepped on. When you want to shout for someone to pick you up, but you are too tired to even speak up. The kind wherein you cant stop crying, or even if your eyes do, your heart does not. When one thought of what makes you down will bring back all the tears you wish to hide from those around you. The kind that breaks your heart ever so slowly. Little by little piercing you until you could not take it anymore. The kind of down that makes you just want to give up; to just surrender to the pain and let it take you wherever it wants to... To the darkest and deepest abyss, to the most isolated chasm, to emptiness...
Tell me, what do you do?

Pagpunta ni Jay sa Ilocos

Kagabi, umuwi si Jay papunta Ilocos. Dumating kasi ang tita niya from the States at dun nila sa Ilocos iremember ang death anniversary ng lola niya. 4 na araw siya mawawala, kayang talagang malungkot ako. Hindi pa naman kasi kami nagkakahiwalay ng ganung katagal eh. Ayaw ko kasi talaga. As much as possible, gusto ko at the end of the day, kasama ko siya. Gusto ko, when I wake up in the middle of the night, katabi ko siya. But for four nights, mawawala siya. Sigurado, I will miss him terribly. Actually, ngayon palang, I already do. Pag naiisip ko kasi na pagkatapos ng work, paguwi ko sa bahay, wala naman siya. Buti na nga lang hindi niya isinaman yung mga anak namin eh. Buti nlang, may sasalubong parin sa akin paguwi. Pero siyempre, iba parin kapag andun siya.Buti na rin lang, he surprised me with a teddy bear. Dati ko pa kasi gustong magkaron ng teddy bear. And now he gave me one. Para nga naman may yakap ako habang wala siya. Haaaay.Naku, ewan ba, good luck nalang sa akin ngayong linggong ito. Mahal, unuwi ka na dito....

Lesley's Despedida

Nung Sunday, we had a despedida for Les. Alis na kasi siya papunta siyang Singapore. Dun na siya magpapayaman. Haha. Kaming apat na magbabarkada nung highschool at si Borj ang lumabas. Dapat kasama namin si Jay, but for some reason, hindi siya nakasama. So kami nalang napunta. Sa Seaside palutuan kami nagpunta.

Masarap dun! Mamalengke ka, tapos ipapaluto mo. Mura lang lumalabas ang food. Sabi nila, pinakamasarap daw sa GSquared kaya yung family ko dun lagi kumakain kaya dun rin kami kumain. Nagpaluto kame ng buttered crab, sinigang na hipon at sizzling pusit. Sarap! Hhhmmmm!

We wanted more, but dahil 5 lang nman kame, un nlang. Masaya sa Seaside kasi yung environment niya, masarap talaga makipagkwentuhan. It is a great place to meet up with friends, have reunions, or simply to have a feast.

Masaya ako na malungot nung gabing yun. Masaya dahil masaya naman talaga kasama yung mmga friends ko eh. Masarap pa sila kasama kumain kasi ang tatakaw. Hehe. Malungot siyempre because of what we are celebrating. After our sumptious dinner, nagpunta kami sa Metrowalk to have dessert.

Dapat sana Ice Monster, but wala na pala. SO Icebergs nlang. Medyo disappointed ako kasi sobrang asim na nung mango con hielo nila. Hindi ko nga naubos eh. Sayang. Natuwa kami sa Metrowalk kasi may naglalaro nung parang rodeo thingie. You have to stay on a automated bull for 80 seconds on 1 hand. Medyo magalaw yung bull kaya mahirap. Nakakatuwa siyang panoorin kasi mukhang tanga yung ibang sumasakay, at masarap namang icheer yung ibang magaling. Meron nga ding basketball challenge, wherein you have to shoot 8 balls in 25 seconds, free throw distance. Sayang, dahil kung kasama namin si Jay, e di sana nanalo na kame ng stuff toy. I think sobrang dali lang nun for him e.

We went home around 11pm, may pasok pa kasi ako kinabukasan e. Sayang, sana madami pa ang ganoong mga outings. Sigurado ma-mi-miss ko si Les, at dahil wala si Les, malamang hindi na kami ganung magkita ng barkada... So, mamimiss ko rin sila...

Pagpunta sa Avilon Zoo

Nung Sabado, nagpunta kami sa Avilon Zoo. Matagal ko na actually gusto pumunta dun, hindi lang nagkakaopportunity. Nung Sat, dapat talaga ay magbeach kame as a despedida for Lesley but dahil hindi natuloy, nagpunta nlang kame Avilon. Hehe, I know medyo magkaibang activity talaga yun altogether but ang gusto kasi namin magawa ay magpicture picture eh. It took us about an hour from our house, si Les ang nagdrive. Isinama namin si Jay at Andre, iniisip ko kasi na magugustuhan ni Andre ang mga animals. ANd I think I could say he did. May mga animals na takot siya, meron namang natutuwa siya. May mga part na nagpapakalong siya, pero may mga times naman na naglalakd siya ng kusa at tumatakbo. Nasiyahan naman ata kasi siya eh.

Kame rin ni Les tuwang tuwa. Ang sarap kasi magpicture at maganda ang mga animals.

Si Jay, hindi ko alam kung nag-enjoy. But he did say maganda yung place. Maganda naman kasi talaga eh. 7.5 hectares daw siya, pinakamalaking zoo in the Philippines. Malinis yung lugar, at masarap talaga pasyalan. May mga animals nga na pakalat-kalat lang e. .

Basta ako, nagenjoy ako. Happy ako na nagpunta kame dun. I'm sure matutuwa din ang kahit sinong pupunta . Para sa mas maraming pictures, visit www.mommydyanne.multiply.com/photos/album/17