WORK!!!!

Wow! I am now feeling what it is to work in Orders! Haha. What do I mean? Before, when I was only handling the High Worth Key Accounts, I had a lot of petics time. I am in total control of my time and I feel no pressure at all. Last Tuesday, I was tapped by our TL to backup the escalations team. Now, I also handle delivery status, returs and urgent orders. In effect, I am now cluttered with work! Haha, and I'm loving it!

This is not really something that I want to experience everyday, but right now, I am happy because I feel so useful and every case I resolve makes me feel accomplished. Haha.

Anyway.. I have to go, back to work... :)

Everyday

I kiss you softly before I go
This is how I want to start my day
I hug you tight to let you know
That I'll miss you while I'm away

When from you I am far
You must know that I feel blue
My easy day becomes real hard
Coz all I want is to be with you

So after my long day I rush home
And then everything just melts away
When you make your love known
As what your hugs and kisses say

Everyday I have you to hold
And feel your love that's true
So Everyday I thank the Lord
For blessing me with you

The Mayor's House

Went to the house of Mayor ER Ejercito last Sunday. The reason: Jay being invited to run for counsilor. Naturally, as befitting Jay's personality, he declined. No amount of courting and very hopeful predictions from the mayor and all the other counsilors made him say yes. Anyway, took pictures of some of the items there while waiting for Jay to be convinced...

High Worth Key Accounts

*Momon, Anna, Joey, Jaymee, Migs, Me, Chuty, Paula & TL Yus

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This is the HWKA peeps. My Team. We handle the biggest and most important clients of Shell Australia, kaya feeling important din kami. Haha. I love my team. Magkakasundo naman kami, walang issues, walang irritations. We are even lucky with our TL. Bait kasi si TL Yus, kwela at generous. Dinadalhan niya kami ng pandesal sa umaga, nilibre sa MCdo nung nagabsent siya, at blowout kame buong team for dinner.

Sobrang hilig magpicture-picture ng team namin. This may be the 30th picture we've taken of our group since March 5. O diba, wala pang 1month yun...

Kaya sigurado... More to come..

Random Thoughts At The Office

Sabi nila, kapag magsulat ka raw sa isang journal, walang kailangang topic, walang kailangang flow.. Nirerecommend nga ng mga psychiatrists, para sa mag taong magulo ang isip, or kahit sa mag ataon lang na gusto ng deeper understanding sa sarili, na kumuha lang ng bolpen at papel, at magsulat ng magsulat ng kahit anu lamang na papasok sa kanilang utak.

Kaya ito ang gawin ko ngayon. Gusto ko kasi magsulat, pero wala naman akong maisip na topic. Kaya pagbigyan niyo na ako ngayon at ako ay dadaldal ng walang katuturan. Ano ba ang mga iniisip ko ngayon? Medyo marami, halo-halo, pero wala namang mabigat na isipin. Mga lakad at plano sa weekend, budget sa parating na sweldo (yehey), mga gusto kong bilhin ( mga dvds ng series ), mga outings na hindi matuloy-tuloy (officemates, family and honey), pasalubong sa anak ko, ang baby kong may sakit, ang baby kong makulit, at syempre ang mahal kong asawa.

Ang sarap kasi ng ganito, wala masyado ginagawa. Sa totoo lang, yung mga kasama ko, reklamo ng reklamo na walang trabaho, at nagagalit sila kapag may ibang gumagawa ng trabaho namin. Pero ako, keber ko ba kung walang trabaho! Masaya nga eh! May oras akong magmuni-muni, magsulat, maginternet, manood ng dvd... Magawa ang kahit anong gusto kong gawin.. Matulog nlang ata ang hindi ko pa nagagawa dito eh. Although sinabi naman ng boss namin na kapag puyat, o masama ang pakiramdam, magsabi lang at papayagan niyang umidlip sandali. O diba?

Yun nga lang, kapag wala akong ginagawa, minsan naiisip ko na sana nasa bahay nlang ako, kasi nandun ang pamilya ko eh... Pero syempre.. sabi ko nga, hindi man ako nagtratrabaho, kumikita pa rin naman ng pera eh. So konting tiis at tyaga nlang.

FOILED PLANS

Excited pa naman ako. Dapat punta kami sa amin this weekend. Wala lang, team bonding sana, just to have fun and enjoy each other's company. Plantsado na ang lahat, ayos na nag budget, ayos na ang logistics... pero bigla.. hindi na tuloy... sayang.. nakakafrustrate, nakaka-sadden... When you plan things, get excited about it, and then hinid lang siya matuloy basta. Nakakawalang gana.

If I Believe

If I believed in paradise
I'd swear I must be there
I'd swear I must be there right now with you
If I believed in miracles
I'd know that one was happening to me
But if I don't believe in paradise
Then miracles aren't real
Then someone tell me what is this I feel
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I can't deny
if I believed in paradise
I'd swear I'm there
If I believed in magic spells
It all would be so clear
'Cause magic spells must have brought you here
If I could see the future
I'd see if you and I were meant to be
But I dont know any magic
And tomorrow's just a dream
But something in this fantasy is real
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I cant deny
If I believed in paradise
I'd swear I'm there
I'm there
I'm there
If I believed.

I love this song.The song itself is not what is important, but the memories that it actually triggers. For one thing comes to mind when I hear this song from Patti Austin. The day I knew who I want to spend forever with.

I knew I love him even before, but on that fateful day, I learned what people mean when they say "you'll just know when he is the right one for you." There were no more doubts, questions, or fears. He is the guy for me. The guy I've been waiting for. The guy I would fulfill my dream of having a happy family with.

In retrospect, the time this song is bringing me back to is truly one of the most memorable experiences I've had. The place was not really beautiful, the food not great. But it made me see how I dont need to be in a beautiful place to be in paradise....

The Wedding

Wow. Over a handful of tissues, I've finished the novel The Wedding by Nicholas Sparks. Again, wow. The book is finished, the story has ended, and yet I still find myself crying. Not because the story was tragic, but because the story really tugged at my romantic heart.

The story is about a couple, who after 29 years of marriage are slowly drifting apart. It started with the realization of Wilson that despite his tremendous love for his wife, their marriage seems to be going downhill. He then decides that he would not let his marriage fall apart, as he knows that he is really blessed to have Jane as his wife and that he does not want to live without her. The story spans for one year, from the night Wilson forgot their 29th anniversary to the night he finally made up for all the things he was not able to give his wife. They change from a couple who is on the brink of breaking up, to a couple madly in love with each other once again.

I have always been a fan of romantic stories, and surely, an older couple who remains in love with each other after many many years would pass my standards. My heart melts whenever I see grandmas and grandpas (not necessarily real old) still holding hands, still connecting with each other through looks, words or touches. It makes me ponder how we will be in the future. Will we still be holding hands years from now? Will we be as blessed as they are? Is our love as enduring as theirs is?

With these questions in mind, I think about what we have now. Do we constantly strive to show how much we love each other?Do we constantly seek to connect through looks, words and touches? When people see us, do they see a young couple deeply in love? The answer I'm afraid is not as rosy as I would want it to be. I have to admit that there are days that we are unable to express our love, times when we fail to connect, and moments when we are just a married couple.

I still have high hopes though. For despite instances when I see that our relationship is not perfect, I am still convinced that our love would endure. I know that I am truly blessed to have you, and I know that as the years pass by, yours is still the hand I want to hold.

So maybe I should stop worrying about the future. I should just work on today, on what we have now. Instead of thinking if we will still be holding hands in the future, I will hold your hand now. I will never let a day pass without letting you feel how much I love you. I will constantly connect with you, so that even in difficulties you would know I am still with you. I will do this day after day, month after month and year after year. And most probably, before we even know it, we would already be old.. and still holding hands.

Our Tomorrow

I wonder what's in store for us tomorrow... What does the future have for us? I have to admit that sometimes I get scared... Can we reach our dreams? Are we trying our best to reach them? Is our best good enough? But of course, my faith in the Lord vanquishes my fears. I know that in the right time, He will give us what will be best for us. And that is why depite my occasional fears, I am excited about the future. I can hardly wait for the day that our dreams will start coming true. I do not know exactly what would happen, but I do know that with you, the future would definitely be beautiful...

Almost Perfect

"The bottom line is that (a) people are never perfect, but love can be, (b) that is the one and only way that the mediocre and vile can be transformed, and (c) doing that makes it that. We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love. " - Tom Robbins (1936 - ), Still Life With Woodpecker

I know I am not perfect. In fact, I know I'm far from it. Most of the times I think of myself as mediocre, in more depressing moments I slide down to being below average. I have to admit I didnt think of myself that way before. I used to see myself as a prize catch, worthy of admiration from anyone. I may have lacked humility and wisdom to know better. Continually falling short from expectations and ideals that are either implicitly or otherwise imposed on me made me see how flawed I am. Gone is my bloated feeling of self-worth. Sometimes, I cannot even see the shadow of the "Great Me" I thought I was.

I know now that I have made a lot of mistakes. I have a lot of what parents ( and of course, husbands as well) wish none for their child ( and wife). Bad experiences, incorrect choices, and even a tainted character. Moreover, I lack what they would have wished for me instead. Qualities that make a perfect daughter, wife and a mother.

Is it too late for me then? Because of what I have been in the past, did I already lose my chance to be an ideal woman? I would think sometimes that I deserve a 2nd, and even a 3rd chance. I would think that my past should not define me, and that I could totally transform to something beautiful even if I started out ugly. Look how ordinary sand could lose all its graininess and develop into a smooth and beautiful glass. But other times it seems that it is just an unreachable dream. My past does not seem to leave me, it continues to haunt and penalise me for the things I have done. There seems to be no escape from the pit I have dug myself into.

I guess this is where love interferes. When everything about me is shouting of mediocrity and even ugliness, maybe, just maybe, love could change me. When alone I cannot remove the bad in me, maybe someone with love would be able to do so. Maybe love could free me, and finally make me beautiful. I still won't be perfect, but through love's eyes, maybe I could be Almost Perfect...

Backyard

*A SHOT OF OUR NATURE-INSPIRED BACKYARD SWIMMING POOL

Gustong-gusto ko sa bahay namin sa Pagsanjan, Laguna. Masarap kasi tumambay dun dahil maganda ang tanawin, maginhawa ang ihip ng hangin, at tunay na nakakapayapa ng damdamin. Gusto ko kasi talaga ang tanawing may tubig. Para bang napaka peaceful ng buhay sa may tubig. May problema ka man, pwede mo itong ipadala sa agos ng tubig. Kung gugustuhin mo, pwede ka ring tumubug sa tubig, at lunurin ang problema o linisin ang iyong sarili. Maginhawa pa. Hehe.

I DONT KNOW

Dont ask me, I dont know. What TO think nor what TO feel. But I know what I DO think, what I DO feel... But still, don't ask me... I think I know what TO say... Nothing. I'll just let it be.

I Have A New Phone!!!!!

I am so happy with my new phone!!! Actually, it is not because it is a state-of-the-art phone, its just that I got it for free! Hehe. It is Moto C261, colored (65K), with camera and has a slim and elegant design. I got it when I subscribed to Sun's P350/mo line. Sulit! Now I get to text to Sun Subscribers unlimitedly (my whole family is using Sun Ü), I get to have 250 free texts to other networks, and I still have P200 consummable for voice calls. Sulit talaga!

Movie Poster

Pwede na bang movie poster ng isang horror movie ito? Hehe.. Hindi ko sinasabing mukhang mumu yung picture ha... Ü The mumu is somewhere out there.... Ü

This Is It!

* MY 2ND HOME; MY QUEENDOM*


After 3 months of training, eto na kami... Officially part of the Shell Australia Orders Team!!!!

My station is set, I've arranged my picture frames, posted additional photos, brought office supplies that I do not really need, and even decorated my station with stuff toys from home.

I am thrilled... training almost bored me to death and I am now ready for more exciting and productive undertakings..

Aussies, here I come!!!


*ON MY FIRST DAY DOING ACTUAL WORK

Sana Nasa Tabi Mo Ako....

Malungkot ako ngayon... Kasi wala ako sa bahay para maalagaan ang mahal ko... Alam ko kailangan niya ako ngayon... Alam ko dapat nasa bahay ako ngayon... Pero andito ako ngayon sa trabaho, walang magawa para sa mahal kong may sakit...
Ang hirap kapag may gusto kang gawin at kumukontra ito sa kailangan mong gawin. Ang hirap kapag napipilitan kang gawin ang isang bagay, kapag meron kang mas gustong gawin. Pero sa tingin ko , pinakamahirap kapag may hinihingi sa yo ang mahal mo at hindi mo maibigay... Ang hirap kapag kailangan ka niya pero wala ka...

Hindi ako nakakapagpost

Ilan araw na ang lumilipas at hindi na ako nakakapagpost.. Medyo busy kasi... INaayos ko kasi ngayon ang aming station. Nagdodownload din ako ng mga kanta na inilalagay ko sa pc ko para naman hindi ako mabore sa aking magiging trabaho. Hehe. Kaya hindi ako masyado nakakasulat. Idagdag pa doon na binabasa ko ngayon ang Along Came A Spider ni James Patterson. Maganda siya at talagang medyo may pagka-suspense. Hindi tuloy ako nakakapagsulat tuwing break dahil nagbabasa nalang ako dahil hindi ko na mahintay kung ano ang magiging katapusan ng libro. Haha. Basta, pasensya na kung hinid ako nakakapagsulat... promise, babawi rin ako....