What if?

The news is out. Today, 8 of my friends became doctors. I am very happy for them - special mention to Ria who placed 5th. I know they've studied hard and that they deserve that title.

Now, this news made me think: "What if I had been celebrating with them today?" Meaning, what if I had not opted the easy way out and pursued medicine, just as I had planned 12, (until 7) years ago?

As a young kid, I had always thought I would be either a doctor or a lawyer. These two careers required some degree of intelligence, which humbly, I think I had. I know I could have been with them today. I could have passed that exam as well (ok, even if not on the 1st try, I would think I'd nail it on the 2nd). What I didn't have though, was the focus to see my dreams through.

Somewhere in the middle of my pre-med course, I changed my mind. Thought I'd rather be a lawyer, but then again, even before I finish my then pre-law course, I changed my mind the second time and decided I'm happy with just being a graduate of Psychology. I cannot even be called a Psychologist.

Years after my decision, I am plagued with the "What ifs...?" I think I am happy with my job, but, please Lord, tell me I made the right choice. Tell me I am on the right path. Tell me that this is really where I belong. Maybe I won't hear God's answer today, but I'll wait. I know he'll let me know soon enough.

Thoughts

Thoughts running through my mind right now:

1. I love my job. Thank you Lord, for leading me to this.
2. I have a happy life. Not perfect, but a life I would not trade with anyone my age I know. And what I have I wish for my friends. Lots of Love, joy and fulfillment.
3. I want to be loved by at least 10 people around me the way millions love Cory. Of course, I know that I have to try to be somehow like her to achieve this. And it is very difficult. I have not known myself to be saint-like.
4. Willie Revillame is abusing the love and fame that the Filipino mass is bestowing on him. Better straighten up his act, or all that he is enjoying will soon disappear. Bye bye luxuries.
5. Husbands and wives SHOULD really sleep and wake up together, every night/day if possible. It's the only way marriage SHOULD be lived. I'm gonna miss Jay when he goes back to his regular work schedule. Aaaargh.
6. I'm doing a shortcut with my blog - but bear with me, next time maybe I'll have something longer. Someting more profound. :)

Blogging

Emotions are fleeting...

Moments treasured may oh so soon escape our ever so unreliable memory.

As time passes, the more things we want to remember, and the less our minds are capable of storing them all.

That is why keeping a diary is important, a blog even.

For life is rich and beautiful - and it needs to be recorded.

To give you a more concrete picture of all that you are, and to remind you of the things that molded the "you" that you're seeing now.

I have once been actively blogging- and I enjoyed it tremendously. For reasons I can only associate with laziness, I stopped.

Now, I wanna try again.